“Justyna was a key player in developing the effective use of information systems. She was also known as a very logical thinker with excellent organisation skills. Justyna was able to prioritise her work and meet the required deadlines. She was very good with dealing with queries over the phone and email and attended all team meetings. She was an independent worker as well as a good team player. Justyna was a dedicated and hardworking member of the team and had excellent communication skills with all members of the staff. … I knew Justyna was a very ambitious and driven person and it was clear that she had the ability to become even more successful. I don’t know what her plans were at the time but it was obvious that Justyna would eventually secure alternative employment where she had the opportunity to progress and better her career. I got the feeling that this was not enough for her she wanted to push herself further.”
“I had always dreamed of having a daughter and at this scan I realised that my dreams were coming true and that it was really happening- I felt the happiest person in the world at that point.”
“I wanted to do the same with my daughter as my mum had done to me.”
“Justyna’s house would be full of family and friends and there was a lot of fun in the house. If the music was on Justyna would be the first one to get up and start dancing. The house was full of smiles and laughter.”
“Justyna has stopped smiling and laughing, she is a completely different person now. She has isolated herself and won’t let anyone in. She doesn’t look after herself anymore and has stopped doing all the things which she used to love and enjoy. … Nothing brings her joy, she has become very closed, wooden and vacant.”
“She has become a paranoid prisoner in her own house.”
“59. Justyna is the way she is now because Megan was taken away from her. Had Megan not died, nothing would have changed in Justyna’s life. Had Megan lived, there would have been no strain on the relationship with Mark, she would have developed her career and she would have gone on to have a successful family of her own. 60. All I can see at the moment for Justyna is black and darkness. Justyna has received a lot of emotional support and physical help, but it hasn’t made a difference. Although Justyna is still living her life, rather than moving forwards she’s going backwards. I’ve run out of ideas on how to help Justyna move forward with her life, I’ve tried everything and nothing seems to have worked.” … Nothing brings her joy, she has become very closed, wooden and vacant.”
“Her personality has completely changed. I can’t sit down and have a normal conversation with her without it leading to an argument. I can’t find a way to re-connect with her. She is disinterested in everything and I am concerned she is getting worse.”
“Justyna now has a very short temper and gets herself wound up and upset over the smallest things. She can’t find a happy moment to smile for.”
“Justyna is totally devastated baby died during giving birth”
“292 … during the first session, I told the counsellor what had happened and she started crying which I thought was unprofessional. I then lost confidence in her and found the session to be of little benefit.”
“Mrs Smith said that she had some private counselling and that the counsellor had cried which Mrs Smith thought had been unprofessional.”
“She told me she was referred for counselling. She said she had indeed had some counselling early on after she lost her daughter but found it very unhelpful.”
“… Did mindful meditation with her she enjoyed it thoroughly she’s had good news but is showing signs of depression, tired all the time and sleeping for hours every day.”
“Justyna met with a work colleague (Tina), Mark and I are going away for the weekend to London. Better week than last week. Looking for another job, not being paid what I’m worth, I’ve done my homework and found evidence other like for like jobs are being paid much more.”
“Justyna, mixed week, good weekend until I got my period, I kept thinking if it was an implantation bleed. I dreamt of my grandfather, who is dead, he told me don’t worry Megan is with grandma. We spoke about head and heart conflict in a Gestalt theoretical way.”
“Justyna got her new job, had second interview and handed in her notice today. It’s going to be the start of a brand new focus start from 10 March. Mark working at the Swanholme, last session will be before7 March 2014 then she leaves the company for new beginnings.”
“Justyna coping and happier with new focus.”
“Stillborn baby in May 2013 very upset, devastating and traumatic experience says she has lost trust with the hospital docs. Never had problems during the pregnancy, was overdue induced and ended with stillbirth. Post-mortem done and cause was unknown so obviously very upset with what she has gone through and what she is going through. Because of all this not able to sleep and appetite decreased. Worried if she could ever conceive … very upset during the consultation.”
“History: mood very low, sad, isn’t a day or moment when doesn’t think about stillbirth, worse after seeing consultant. Now feels let down by hospital, not monitored after contractions so could have been prevented. Very tearful; not been like this before, discussed counselling not keen. Saw gynaecologist in Poland, had period 1st August given progesterone to take …took progesterone to get pregnant last time.”
“Didn’t get on with tablets, felt nauseated, stopped last week, back at work, thinks needs counselling, gave leaflet for Lincoln Centre for Counselling as may be quicker than Archway, can use counsellor through work, City School”
“When Justyna returned to work, I noticed that she had become a different person. She was very quiet and didn’t want to talk to anyone at work about what had happened. She looked subdued and sad. She had her head down most of the time and left work as soon as it was time to go home. It was clear that Justyna just wanted to be left alone. She wasn’t the same Justyna that I knew before she went on maternity leave. I felt like I didn’t know her anymore.”
“The main reason was because she wanted a fresh start and wanted to be away from all those who knew what had happened to her daughter. Justyna felt like people were talking about her and she didn’t want people to pity her, she wanted to have a fresh start. The other reason why Justyna left was because she wanted a different job with better career prospects so that she could progress her career.”
“Had a private scan in Poland on Friday, showed thyroiditis. Was given PTU [Propylthiouracil].”
“Justyna going on holiday today and eager to know if everything was ok prior to going … FHHR (Fetal heart heard regular) with Doppler, 150 bpm (beats per minute), maternal pulse 80 bpm. Reassurance given …”
“When she found out it was a boy was when she started to crumble. She was in tears when told it was a boy at the scan.”
“[Justyna] is obviously therefore very worried about experiencing labour and we have agreed that her mode of delivery this time around should be a caesarean section. We have arranged for this to take place on1 September 2015 all being well with the pregnancy …”
“Mrs Smith describes intrusive memories, avoidance of reminders and low mood since the death of her daughter. These symptoms could be related to normal grief or pathological/abnormal grief. The death of a child is known to be an especially difficult loss to come to terms with and is therefore often associated with more prolonged periods of grief. There is no specific cut-off between normal and abnormal grief but it is accepted that grief which is not resolving after 18 months would be considered pathological. Mrs Smith has made some progress in coming to terms with her loss but still has significant symptoms of grief. I would be of the opinion that given it is now over 24 months after her daughter’s death, I would consider her to be suffering from ‘pathological grief’. Pathological or complicated grief is a well-recognised clinical entity and is a familiar term in a legal context. Unfortunately although a well-recognised entity, pathological or complicated grief is not found as a separate entity in either the International Classification of Diseases version 10 or the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of the American Psychiatric Association 5. In my opinion the pathological grief would be best classified as a major depressive disorder, current episode moderate, 296.2 in DSM-5 or a moderate depressive episode, category F32.1 in ICD–10.”
“Mrs Smith is fit to work subject to some reduction in effectiveness due to her symptoms of depression.”
“As part of my duties I have been line managing admin. support staff across sites including their performance management. Due to the very busy nature of the post I’m constantly working to tight deadlines and at most times this means working under pressure. I need to prioritise tasks effectively, coping with conflicting demands of a diverse team. This requires me to work flexibly and meet the timescales set. To do this I need to take ownership of the tasks and ensure effective planning to complete on time. I am constantly adapting to new procedures as my role is constantly developing and changing, therefore the list of duties evolves over time. I’m a highly motivated individual who enjoys the challenge of change. I feel the range of experience that I have meets the competencies required for the post and I hope that I proved within the last 15 months that I am dedicated, hardworking professional and committed team member.”
“She was appointed as PA to the Head Teacher and conducted her duties with professionalism and skill. Her personal relationships are very solid at all levels and she uses her people skills to benefit the organisation. At a time of increasing pressure on the Centre Justyna remained calm and efficient and provided significant additional hours to support me. She was efficient and effective in all her dealings and had an excellent way of communicating with colleagues.”
“I had visions of us standing on the train tracks waiting for the train.”
“After [Zackary] was born she went through an extremely difficult period culminating in her wanting to kill herself and Zackary. Justyna first started to feel suicidal in around December 2015. However, in February 2016, Justyna felt that there was no point in going on and decided to not only end her life but also Zackary’s. This was a very dark period for her. Fortunately I was around at the time to intervene and I stopped her driving away with Zackary.”
“Mrs Zeromska-Smith apparently developed, some five or six months after her son was born, what appears to have been a substantial postnatal depression. She developed classical depressive symptoms and in that depression found herself thinking a great deal about her daughter’s death.”
“She is not taking any antidepressant treatment or had any cognitive-behavioural therapy. I am of the opinion that Mrs Smith requires an urgent referral to the local community mental health team and I have written to her GP, Dr Smith, at the Birchwood Health Centre asking him to do this. I consider she needs to be prescribed antidepressant medication and receive considerable psychiatric support. She would benefit from a course of cognitive-behavioural therapy. I am pessimistic about the prognosis and there is a considerable risk of the marriage breaking up. There is a definite risk of suicide.”
“Has a new baby 8m old, focused on this but now realises never recovered from stillbirth, … not the person she was, feeling hopeless, suicidal thoughts, sees herself standing on level crossing in Skellingthorpe Road, affected marriage, … still breastfeeding a lot …”
“Back from Poland, good trip, kept busy – walking, seeing family, still a distance, told family about mood issues, not managed to wean, as sister lived in flat and didn’t want baby to cry, now 8m, thinks break has helped relationship, husband has missed them.”
“Justyna reports that her mood has been low since her stillbirth of three years ago, which she is struggling to come to terms with and is taking legal action against the obstetric team because she believes it to be a result of human error. She has not had any input from SANDs [a stillbirth and neonatal death charity] because she did not think that anyone would be able to help her. She describes flashbacks and nightmares to the delivery. These are triggered by seeing a family of four and seeing certain toys etc. She is fearful that something will happen to Zackary, which results in her being afraid of leaving him and checking on him in the night. She is due to return to work in September as a Business Manager at a school but dreads leaving Zackary as she is unable to trust anyone to look after him.”
“Unfortunately I was unable to attend this appointment. Miss Karen Owen (counsellor) telephoned me on the same day and I explained that the reason why I couldn’t attend was because I couldn’t take Zackary with me to the appointment and I wasn’t prepared to leave him with anyone else. I also explained that I was still unable to talk about what happened to Megan as I found it too traumatic to deal with. For this reason I was discharged from their care.”
“This has resurfaced anxieties and worries about the possibility that a new baby may be a girl, she told me that she feels petrified about things going wrong and her pre-treatment psychometric tests for low mood … anxiety/worry … and post-traumatic stress had in fact increased. … In session we discussed the paradoxical effects of intentional hopelessness as a defence for imaginary future disaster coping in order to challenge the belief ‘I always make myself low so that if I fall, I will not come down from too much height’.”
“197. I am now a shadow of a person I used to be. I have lost all my confidence, motivation, self-worth and the joy of life I had. I can’t focus on things, I don’t remember simple things like dates of appointments etc I feel isolated, lonely and hopeless.”
“I probably stay in bed for a large part of the day two or three times a week.”
“Megan’s death has taken a terrible toll on our marriage. We are on the verge of breaking up. Eventually there will come a time when it will all blow up.”
“I went outside, closed the door and walked a few steps and then panicked and ran back into the house. I just couldn’t do it. Simple things like this may be easy for others but for me it was impossible. My biggest fear is to leave Zackary alone, I just can’t separate him from me.”
“Although I love Zac dearly, he is not Megan. I keep thinking he should have a sister. We go to the grave and he sings Twinkle Twinkle by her grave.”
“What I’d been holding back came out overwhelmingly like a domino effect. I couldn’t deal with the emotions. I felt disappointed that I had been robbed. He [Zackary] was not Megan. It was a scary feeling, because I couldn’t control it. It was the realisation that I’d been fooling myself, that what I wanted was gone forever. I didn’t know how to deal with it.”
“She has a mental health problem. Despite this she will care for her son, she will prepare meals and understand dangers in the kitchen, she enjoys spending time with her son during the week. She is also able to drive. If an appointment is running late she will feel anxious but is able to wait, she is able to cope with sudden changes in traffic. She reports she is able to take her son and dog to her local park alone, however she is unable to go somewhere new for an appointment due to her anxiety, this appears consistent with her mental state, and level of input. Although she is not taking any medications this is due to her being pregnant. She is able to talk to her husband and family ok but isn’t able to ask for help in a waiting room or talk to others when taking her son to playgroup, this also appears consistent with her mental state and level of input at this time. She denies any violent or aggressive behaviour, she had moderate difficulty coping with assessment, she was tense and restless, appearing timid, she had poor eye contact and rapport, speaking very little and quietly. She is managed by specialists and has recently stopped therapy. The overall evidence suggests a significant disability is likely through a combination of going out and coping socially, however unlikely in all other mental health areas.”
“I would have to explore the options”
“It has been a horrible experience – I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. I wish I wasn’t here and I had Megan back. I will be happy when this is over, but it is only something I have had to go through. It has hit hard because it has made me realise it has happened. I’m really struggling today – I just want to go home. I have to do this – there is nothing left.”
“When she found out it was a boy was when she started to crumble. She was in tears when told it was boy at the scan. When she had Zac, it was anxiety and tears. Everything she did with Zac was, in her mind, what she should have done with Megan. Then the balloon burst and it was a big bang.”
“Our personal and physical relationship no longer exists. We do not even feel like friends anymore. It feels as if we are strangers living in the same house with our son. I desperately long for the life that we used to have and the wonderful loving relationship. I can’t seem to get close to Justyna, she is locked in her own world. I can’t believe how much this has affected both of us. We are unrecognisable from the people we used to be. Our lives have been destroyed. I feel helpless and worthless. … I don’t know if our marriage will survive this tragedy, I’m desperately holding on because we had such a wonderful life and relationship before Megan’s death. I’m hoping one day that there will be a miracle and I will get Justyna back but I don’t think it will ever happen.”
“She was having to deal with the fact that it was a boy, not Megan. Everything related to Megan – she was having to face her loss for the first time, and it destroyed her. The boxes at the back of her head cracked open – she couldn’t hide from it anymore.”
“There are constant arguments over daily routines – she is anxious and very intolerant all the time.”
“Prolonged grief is the most common form of complicated grief in adults. It is different from normal grief in that the immediate grief reactions persist over time with more or less undiminished strength, causing a considerable loss of everyday functioning. One may also observe little change or flexibility with regard to the way in which this grief is handled. Prolonged grief is primarily characterised by an intense longing for or persistent preoccupation with the deceased person. Other characteristics include difficulties in accepting the death, the feeling of having lost a part of oneself, difficulties in continuing with life, emotional numbness and avoidance of things/places/activities that serve as reminders of the deceased. Others also emphasised rumination over how the death could have been avoided, blaming of others and self-blame as typical of persons who struggle with prolonged grief.”
“Unfortunately, the various attempts at psychiatric treatment including cognitive behavioural therapy and antidepressant medication has been ineffective. She has been unable to engage with the cognitive behavioural psychotherapy and she has failed to respond to antidepressant medication. This is compounded by the fact that she seems to have had a relatively poor relationship with her consultant psychiatrist and both the psychiatrist and clinical psychologist require a substantial journey to see. I am satisfied that substantial efforts have been made to ensure that Mrs Smith has received the necessary treatment to alleviate her psychiatric injury. Given the duration of illness (over five years) and the lack of response to treatment, I consider her prognosis is poor. On the balance of probability, I believe she is going to continue to be depressed with unresolved grief and sadly I cannot see this will change. There remains the high risk of the marriage breaking up and there is a definite risk of suicide. It is likely that her depression will fluctuate from moderately severe to severe. She may well suffer an exacerbation following the birth of her second son and if for example her husband were to leave.”
“Mrs Zeromska-Smith is very ambivalent about psychological therapy and mostly not motivated for it. This is unfortunate. I believe if she were motivated for it she would be able to make progress overcoming her pathological attachment to her son which is not a psychiatric state over which she has no control or choice. She would also likely benefit from getting back to work of some kind to redevelop more self-esteem and a sense of achievement. All this would likely improve her mood and general adjustment and relationship with her husband.”
“In my view had she engaged constructively in therapy she would have been able to overcome her problem emotions (sic) and behaviours within six months of starting therapy.”
“1. It is now accepted that the Claimant suffered from a psychiatric injury or illness as a result of the stillbirth of Megan on28 May 2013 The Court is now required to make findings on the following: (a) At what point in time did the Claimant suffer from a psychiatric injury or illness? (b) What was the nature and severity of the psychiatric injury or illness? (c) Has the Claimant recovered from the psychiatric injury or illness? (d) If not what is the prognosis for her recovery? 2. In the light of the findings on issue 1: (a) What is the treatment plan which is most likely to assist the Claimant’s recovery? (b) What is the cost of such a plan? (c) What will be the nature of the Claimant’s recovery? (d) When will this probably be achieved?”
“Dr Baggaley was unable to give any clear explanation as to this time period and at one stage appeared to be suggesting that the time period for recovery would be proportionate to the period of the symptoms to date.”