“It is of course true that the abuse resulted in no physical injury to the claimant. It was not (as I have found) penetrative. Nevertheless, its frequency, its duration (the individual “football coaching” in the holidays could last all day), the period of years over which it was committed and the intense feelings of violation, dread, isolation, shame and humiliation that the claimant described experiencing at the time must, if true, all have combined together to produce significant psychological effects.”
“… for the next fifteen years until I was forced out of legal practice, law always seemed some kind of curse I’d been inflicted with, I rarely enjoyed it or rather only did when I was working for an all too rare congenial older lawyer, who was supportive. Most of the time, I felt like a cat in a sack flung in a river. I was always aware that I was using so little of my true talent, and that it all caused me far more angst than it seemed to cause others less able than me – this set up a tremendous self-loathing from time to time. Sometimes being in law has felt as if I am being punished for a crime I have not committed.”
“Reading Styron, I realise my vocabulary, at least written, is limited, particularly adjectives. Thank you 8 years law. A hysterectomy for the creative language part of the mind.”
“The claimant said that, following the events of17 April 2005 , he suffered overwhelming sadness and pain. However, he also experienced a sense of illumination. He viewed the events of his life in a wholly different way. He told me that he had realised over the years that he was making a mess of his life. He believed that he had consistently under-achieved, both academically and in his various employments. This had caused him a great deal of anguish. Previously, he had attributed his under-achievement, his poor employment record, his drinking, his difficulties in forming relationships with the opposite sex and the failure of his marriage to his own defects of character and had hated himself for them. However, he had realised after17 April 2005 that all these various features, together with his feelings of anger, low self-esteem, depression, extreme negativity and exclusion, had occurred as a result of the abuse. He had realised also that, had it not been for the abuse, things would have been “utterly different”
“By the end of the drive I’d moaned about law, she about her dead marriage.”
“Chatted with mummy about the marriage saying she should leave Daddy. The whole thing is so fucked up that it leaves me cold really except I want her to be happy. Daddy has had enough chances yet still continues to look for grievances. God, if my wife was as giving as my mother!”
“…always been rather a distant husband and father, finding it difficult to engage in emotionally close relationships. At times he can be irritable, aggressive, and quite unpleasantly demanding, but apparently unaware of it.”
“The problem for him [the claimant] … was that his father was very passive and withdrawn … When father was assertive, he was out of control and irrational and when he wasn’t that, he was withdrawn and not to be seen.”
“Father had 2 or 3 ns [nervous] breakdowns – melancholic. “Absent father” – emotionally. Endogenous depressive, on Lithium 15yrs. Parents argued ++ - family matters. Mellowed with age.”
“… a busy and on the whole happy unit albeit with my father somewhat removed as a result of the shift patterns at his work and his insular nature.”
“Patrick is a diligent and well-behaved pupil. He produces good written work on subjects in which he is interested. His diction is very clear. He gives thoughtful answers in class, and, when he applies himself, is capable of a high standard of work.”
“His approach to work has been puzzling, for when I thought he was settling down and changing a silly attitude for a more mature realisation of the difficulties posed by the examination, he suddenly appeared to revert to a careless treatment of work set and so gains only 27%. He must make up his mind that success depends on hard work.”
“It used to enrage me that there were others who did better than me. I felt I was using only a minuscule part of my ability.”
“… it was particularly astonishing and reprehensible in view of other recent litigation department incidents of this kind, at least one of which involved [the claimant].”
“… if the incident referred to is the one concerning the large boardroom door I was not involved. The fact that I was in the vicinity putting the list of documents into bundles prior to service later that evening does not constitute, in my view “involvement.” ”
“The bigger the case in terms of importance of client, importance to client and complexity, the better I respond.”
“I recognise that the task of building up the substance of litigation work is a responsibility I must share in and I should direct more effort to this.”
“In recent months appears to be settling into a more controlled but still positive approach whereby he hopefully will realise his undoubted potential and enthusiasm. After very swift initial progress has drifted somewhat, perhaps through lack of direction in the department when others have moved towards specialisation. Fits in easily in most company and should therefore be encouraged to work on client development (which is again connected to specialisation).”
“I think that there has been much improvement in recent months. Clearly you have the potential to develop clients – you get on well with people in general (if you want to!) but you can offend quite needlessly and sometimes based on a belief that you really do know better when you do not. This strong headedness has its charm but can be intensely irritating at times – you have more than your fair share of charm to counterbalance all this. BUT if you are to realise your potential you must concentrate on the serious matters in this office and show that you can do an absolutely 1st class job. I believe you can and I have seen real improvements which fill me with hope that you will now go on a steady path upwards. I would like to talk to you very specifically about the areas of work that interest you and how that is to be developed.”
“(1) to handle a wider range of matters involving contact with senior partners within the department. (2) to demonstrate a capability of handling substantial litigation in a consistently first class way. (3) to start considering and put into effect some steps towards client development. (4) to show that you can utilise your personality to your advantage as opposed to your disadvantage. This last factor in my view is the most important.”
“At my stage of qualification, I should like to know more about my partnership prospects”
“… He sometimes could think around his matters more to assess, & re-assess, precisely what his client (& the other side) want out of the litigation. Needs to continue his client development and man-management efforts. Has done well to date but now should be looking to consolidate into actual action plan.”
“…there is no doubt at all that you have settled down (Sorry! That sounds very parental but what else do I say!?) and this aspect was labelled on the last appraisal as something which had to be addressed. Enough said on that.”
“I have to say that I have a question mark in my mind as to whether I can say to you that you will make the grade in Gouldens because you suffer (if that is the right word) from being surrounded by some very strong people at the present time. We will talk further about this.”
“… in terms of intellectual ability, industry and affinity with clients I consider that none of my colleagues eclipses me …”
“If I do not achieve partner status I shall not have fulfilled my potential. I need to keep developing in consistent approach across my case load, improve technical knowledge and do not more to assist in client development.”
“The claimant is able to work largely unsupervised and is therefore of great assistance to me. He has supervised a trainee over the year and has shown himself capable in that area. He has also been building relationships with clients. A valuable member of the Department but unlikely, I think, to be partner material.”
“I would not rule him out of consideration for partnership, but I think it is probably unlikely because I feel he may be overtaken by others in the next couple of years.”
“My feeling is that in less stringent times [the claimant] would be a partnership contender. He could still be if he were able to develop a practice of his own, perhaps in defamation … I would not rule out his prospects at this stage. Let’s wait and see what next year brings.”
“Presumably, re future prospects, nothing has changed unless/until I bring in Rupert Murdoch.”
“I would be very sorry indeed if he were to go but, whilst I would not rule out the possibility, I doubt whether he will be a CLD [commercial litigation department] candidate for promotion, certainly for [19]95.”
“Left [Pinsents] – just walked out like it was nothing, which it was.”
“Q. So you say that he, that is, one of your old bosses [i.e. MP], obtained an undertaking that the story would not be put about by the parties. So clearly this story was identified and an undertaking was sought that this would not be put about by either of you? A. Absolutely. I mean I did not appreciate at the time but of course it was worth nothing because the City is such a small place and it got out anyway.”
“Q. …What I was saying to you was whatever reason was given to you initially, by the time you came to leave there was an undertaking that the story would not be put about by either party. As you say, that information did in fact get out into the legal world. A. Again, I am assuming it did. I have got no evidence for that whatever. Q. You say, in terms – that is why I asked you the question in this way – you say, “In reality it was” namely that the story did get out. “This prevented me from returning to legal practice in effect”
“He brings a unique background in the law to the practice of Business Development. He has genuine flair in the development of opportunities.” and: “Is our best marketing person in the team, always proactive, enthusiastic and a pleasure to work with.”
“Patrick should consider the impact of his actions/behaviour upon others both in London office and nationally. It is possibly the case that his communication style alienates colleagues and does not encourage positive responses. The valuable contributions that he could make are occasionally lost as a result.”
“Detail is not beneath you and a failure to master it ruins the product you provide”
“Seems better at big picture stuff – query commitment to follow through on what does not really fire him up”
“Depression for a [?] year since wife departed. Little energy, easily emotional, panic at thought of life, eating little and self neglecting.”
“I took her for granted and thought that nothing I did would drive her away.”
“76. Dr Shapero and Professor Maden gave evidence about the effects of the abuse on the claimant. Dr Shapero's opinion was that he has some of the features of an enduring personality change consequent upon a traumatic [sic] experience (classified in the Tenth Edition of the International Classification of Diseases (ICD-10) as F62.0) and that this condition has caused, or materially contributed to, many of the difficulties in his life, including his excessive use of alcohol which has in turn caused or exacerbated problems with forming relationships and succeeding in his legal career. Professor Maden disagreed with the diagnosis of enduring personality change. His opinion was that many of the features in the claimant's life that Dr Shapero attributed to that condition could equally well be explained by the claimant's harmful use of alcohol. 77. The psychiatrists agreed that the claimant has an extrovert personality and narcissistic tendencies, features which would account for some of his difficulties, e.g. in maintaining his various employments. Dr Shapero considered that the claimant's personality traits represent enduring personality change as a result of the abusive experiences. Professor Maden's opinion was that his personal traits could satisfactorily be accounted for by hereditary and constitutional factors and that his drinking stemmed from his temperament, his decision to pursue a career to which he was unsuited and other social factors. In other words, he considered that the claimant's personality would have been the same even had the abuse not occurred. 78. The psychiatrists agreed that the evidence suggested that the claimant is a binge drinker who suffers from a mental and behavioural disorder due to harmful use of alcohol (classified in ICD-10 as F10.1). Dr Shapero believed that the claimant's drinking was probably caused by or exacerbated by the abuse. His view was that the claimant started using alcohol to excess (and illicit drugs) as an escape from the emotional impact and memories of the abuse. Professor Maden acknowledged that it was possible that the abuse had contributed to the claimant's excessive alcohol use but he did not accept that this was probable. His view was that the claimant would probably have used alcohol to excess even had the abuse not occurred. 79. The psychiatrists agreed that, since the episode of17 April 2005 , the claimant had become pre-occupied by the abuse and that he had experienced ruminations on the abuse, together with feelings of anger and low mood. They agreed that his symptoms did not justify a diagnosis of post-traumatic stress disorder or a depressive episode, although he had displayed some symptoms of these conditions. Dr Shapero considered that the episode on17 April 2005 had constituted a "cathartic realisation" on the part of the claimant of the abuse that had occurred and that it had given rise to the symptoms from which he had suffered since. Professor Maden considered that the episode was no more than a disclosure by the claimant made during a drunken debate. His view was that the claimant's symptoms since April 2005 had been attributable in part to the abuse and in part to the fact that his life had, in many respects, gone wrong. He accepted that he was suffering a degree of distress as a result of the abuse, but took the view that he was mistakenly fixated on the events of his childhood because, like many men of his age, he was searching for a reason for his past failures.”
“This group [i.e. F62.0 and F62.1] includes disorders of adult personality and behaviour which develop following catastrophic or excessive prolonged stress, or following a severe psychiatric illness, in people with no previous personality disorder. These diagnoses should be made only when there is evidence of a definite and enduring change in a person’s pattern of perceiving, relating to, or thinking about the environment and the self. The personality change should be significant and associated with inflexible and maladaptive behaviour which was not present before the pathogenic experience. The change should not be a manifestation of another mental disorder, or a residual symptom of any antecedent mental disorder. Such enduring personality change is most often seen following devastating traumatic experience but may also develop in the aftermath of a severe, recurrent, or prolonged mental disorder. … Enduring personality change should be diagnosed only when the change represents a permanent and different way of being, which can be etiologically traced back to a profound, existentially extreme experience.”
“Enduring personality change after catastrophic experience Enduring personality change may follow the experience of catastrophic stress. The stress must be so extreme that it is unnecessary to consider personal vulnerability in order to explain its profound effect on the personality. Examples include concentration camp experiences, torture, disasters, prolonged exposure to life-threatening circumstances (e.g. hostage situations – prolonged captivity with an imminent possibility of being killed). Post-traumatic stress disorder (F43.1) may precede this type of personality change, which may then be seen as chronic, irreversible sequel of stress disorder. In other instances, however, enduring personality change meeting the description given below may develop without an interim phase of a manifest post-traumatic stress disorder. However, long-term change in personality following short-term exposure to a life-threatening experience such as a car accident should not be included in this category, since recent research indicates that such a development depends on a pre-existing psychological vulnerability. Diagnostic guidelines The personality change should be enduring and manifest as inflexible and maladaptive features leading to an impairment in interpersonal, social, and occupational functioning. Usually the personality change has to be confirmed by a key informant. In order to make the diagnosis, it is essential to establish the presence of features not previously seen such as: (a) a hostile or mistrustful attitude towards the world; (b) social withdrawal; (c) feelings of emptiness or hopelessness; (d) a chronic feeling of being “on edge”, as if constantly threatened; (e) estrangement. This personality change must have been present for at least two years, and should not be attributable to a pre-existing personality disorder (F43.1). The presence of brain damage or disease which may cause similar clinical features should be ruled out. Includes: personality change after concentration camp experiences, disasters, prolonged captivity with imminent possibility of being killed, prolonged exposure to life-threatening situation such as being a victim of terrorism or torture Excludes: post-traumatic stress disorder (F43.1)”
“…difficulty forming trusting relationships, nightmares, feelings of anger, excessive use of alcohol, mood changes, feelings of estrangement (being different from everyone else), and an inability to be ‘normal’ and hypervigilance.”
“A pattern of psychoactive substance use that is causing damage to health. The damage may be physical … or mental … Diagnostic guidelines The diagnosis requires that actual damage should have been caused to the mental or physical health of the user.”
“Professor Maden believes that the claimant’s personality would have been the same and he would probably have developed harmful use of alcohol even if there had been no abuse … Professor Maden … believes … his drinking stemmed from his temperament; his decision to pursue a career to which his temperament was unsuitable; and social factors.”
“A pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behaviour), need for admiration, and lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following: (1) has a grandiose sense of self-importance (e.g. exaggerates achievements and talents, expects to be recognized as a superior without commensurate achievements); (2) is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love; (3) believes that he or she is “special” and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions); (1) has a grandiose sense of self-importance (e.g. exaggerates achievements and talents, expects to be recognized as a superior without commensurate achievements); (2) is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love; (3) believes that he or she is “special” and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions); (4) requires excessive admiration; (5) has a sense of entitlement, i.e. unreasonable expectations of especially favourable treatment or automatic compliance with his or her expectations (6) is interpersonally exploitative, i.e. takes advantage of others to achieve his or her own ends; (7) lacks empathy: is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others; (8) is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him or her; (9) shows arrogant, haughty behaviours or attitudes.”
“… was remarkable only for his father’s chronic mental health problems which meant that for much of his later childhood [the claimant] lacked a prominent paternal presence in his life. Professor Maden believes this is, and Dr Shapero believes it could have been a vulnerability factor for the development of psychological problems but in and of itself was not predictive of such problems.”
“… there were no environmental problems within [the claimant’s] family as a child and adolescent which may have contributed to the development of any psychiatric disorder from the evidence available to me.”
“…apart from with [his first wife] I have always felt in relationships with women that I cannot rid myself of a kind of outside voice which is always commenting and analysing everything. This often made it different for me to achieve orgasm during sexual intercourse.”
“… one area which shows no real improvement is my sexual dysfunction – the failure to achieve orgasm during sexual intercourse with my partner. I find it difficult to ‘switch off’ and enjoy intimacy in a straightforward manner. There are times during sex when I experience flashbacks and see Father Spencer in his black track suit. This is extremely disturbing. My partner is very understanding even though the dysfunction is a cause of sadness. The several sessions with Dr Sharon Leicht were to try and overcome this problem but largely without success. In three years I have managed to achieve orgasm during intercourse five times.”
“[The claimant] also admitted that sometimes he can find it hard to achieve orgasm (although such problems may also be attributable to alcohol).”
“F91 Conduct Disorders Conduct disorders are characterized by a repetitive and persistent pattern of dissocial, aggressive, or defiant conduct. Such behaviour, when at its most extreme for the individual, should amount to major violations of age-appropriate social expectations, and is therefore more severe than ordinary childish mischief or adolescent rebelliousness. Isolated dissocial or criminal acts are not in themselves grounds for the diagnosis, which implies an enduring pattern of behaviour. .. Disorders of conduct may in some cases proceed to dissocial personality disorder (F60.2). Conduct disorder is frequently associated with adverse psychosocial environments, including unsatisfactory family relationships and failure at school, and is more commonly noted in boys. Its distinction from emotional disorder is well validated; its separation from hyperactivity is less clear and there is often overlap. Diagnostic Guidelines Judgements concerning the presence of conduct disorder should take into account the child's developmental level. Temper tantrums, for example, are a normal part of a 3-year-old's development and their mere presence would not be grounds for diagnosis. Equally, the violation of other people's civic rights (as by violent crime) is not within the capacity of most 7-year-olds and so is not a necessary diagnostic criterion for that age group.”
“… excessive levels of fighting or bullying; cruelty to animals or other people; severe destructiveness to property; firesetting; stealing; repeated lying; truancy from school and running away from home; unusually frequent and severe temper tantrums; defiant provocative behaviour; and persistent severe disobedience. Any one of these categories, if marked, is sufficient for the diagnosis, but isolated dissocial acts are not. Exclusion criteria include uncommon but serious underlying conditions such as schizophrenia, mania, pervasive developmental disorder, hyperkinetic disorder, and depression. This diagnosis is not recommended unless the duration of the behaviour described above has been 6 months or longer.”
“Q. Would you not regard that [i.e.Father Spencer’s regular massaging of the claimant’s groin under the pretence of ‘treating’ him for an injury] as an assault? A. Is it in his action inappropriate behaviour by the teacher towards the child; yes. Is it comparable with raping a screaming child – [at that point, I interrupted to observe that he was not being asked that question].”
“[The claimant] has experienced some difficulties and conflicts regarding his tutors and his position in his tutorial group … He has felt a need to protect others in the group and has at times had difficulty in recognising boundary breaking behaviour in others.”