“I want to go home. I don’t want a gradual reintegrating back to my mum. I just don’t see the point. I’m 15, turning 16 in January. I think I am of an age where I can decide what I want and not have someone else to make the decision for me. I want to go home to my mum. I don’t really like it at [the current placement] anymore. Obviously, I’m very grateful to them but they’re not my parents and they’re not my family and I don’t want to go to another place because it will be exactly the same. I won’t like anyone that isn’t my mum and I think considering my mock results, I would not have got those result if I was at home and had a stable environment to do my revision and I know I can only blame myself for failing but I don’t want that to happen with my Year 11 mocks because they’re a lot more important and I think I will just do a lot better if I have the support from my mum because she is really the only person that supports me and encourages me…I just want to go home and it’s as simple as that. Whenever the Court date is that you decide, I just think I should go home on that day and I don’t think there will be any negative repercussions and I think that me and my mum have always had a good relationship and I think that anyone can tell you that and I don’t see why I’m in care and I don’t think I deserve it. It’s been very unfair on me these past seven months…and that is a very long time for me. For once in my life can I please get what I want. Thank you.”
“[The mother] presents differently since the children being taken in to care. She is more open to the support of services and is more reflective when she attends. The appointments are being used more appropriately and over the past 6 months or so have been less a case of managing risk and more about [the mother] wanting to have an understanding of why she finds certain things difficult as well as her wanting to find appropriate ways to manage her distress. A good example is that the need for an autism assessment has gone from something that she expressed anger towards and didn’t want to complete, to something that would enable her to have an understanding of herself and has now become something that she is able to reflect on and see the positives in spending time to answer this question. I have found that [the mother] is taking more responsibility for her past and present actions. She continues to find the system frustrating and the rules that have been put in place for her. I am sure that her autism has some impact on this. Despite this she seems to be happier to go along with these suggestions and often sees that there is a point to this at a later date. She has been reflecting about things that she hasn’t done well with regards her parenting. She has also been more accepting of things in her past which have and continue to impact on her presentation and behaviour. [The mother’s] suicidal thoughts have now improved and there have not been any thoughts of her wanting to end the life of her or the children using the car over the past 4 months. She is much calmer and more reflective and her self-harming has almost disappeared. [The mother] is more able to speak about her past and the traumas that she has been subjected to in the past. It has understandably taken her a long time to build the trust to speak about these things but it seems that this has been increasingly easier for her to do. She has had a big reduction in her suicidal thoughts and has reflected on these, recognising that this behaviour has come from a place of her feeling overloaded with everything she has to contend with and perhaps these were a way of showing her distress and not her wanting to end her life. She has been able to reflect that these weren’t helpful behaviours and can see that this led to the concerns that Children’s Social Care had regarding her children’s wellbeing and safety. [The mother] has also had a reduction in her self-harming thoughts. She has self-harmed once since the children have been removed. I have been surprised how well she has coped with the upheaval of losing access to her children and she has been able to use her time appropriately; filling this with activities that allow her to care for herself and improve her wellbeing and this is a very positive change. [The mother] has recently started work with one of our psychologists, Dr Dean, in order to complete an assessment of her need and willingness to work with psychology…she is engaging well.”