“I think so much about the couple of minutes of pleasure you got out of me and was it really worth ruining my whole happiness and making me feel so mentally and physically dead. I was that little and young and you used me. Is there any point even trying to picture life without pain?”
“I blame myself more and more every hour because no one sees or feels the way I do in my head. The constant flashbacks of you, the guilt, the pain.”
“Each day I realise more and more that my body will never truly feel like my own, that is because you took advantage of me... You have lived your life, holiday by holiday, rescheduled trial after rescheduled trial, and I have spent years wondering if one day I wouldn’t have to relive what happens when the night terrors take over, if one day that I won’t need support with everything that I do…”
“I won’t need to be on the highest dose of antidepressants after four years of swallowing those pills. Why does it come to me to have to pay for trauma therapy so that you don’t have control over my mind? I had all these setbacks so that you can continue to live your life in utter denial. Why did you do this? Why did you need to ruin my childhood? For a long time I had such a fear of men. Men in general, at work, in shops, a fear that they might take advantage of me the way you did.”
“In the dropdown box under category 2 it says this: ‘The assessment of psychological harm experienced by a victim is a matter for the sentencing court.’ I have come to the view that significant though this is, this harm, it falls short of the severe psychological harm that is anticipated by the guidelines and it is important to make clear that the absence of my finding does not imply in any way that [the victim’s] suffering and harm is minor or trivial, quite the contrary, but these guidelines build into a basic level of psychological harm which is inherent in the offence, and in her case it is enhanced, and so I am going to go up in the sentencing range, with a 6 year starting point, 4 to 9.”
“This is a 3A case, in my judgment. There was abuse of trust, there was grooming. You allowed her to wash you in the bath and you washed her in the bath, gaining her trust, no doubt making her feel comfortable enough to sit on your lap on the occasion when you assaulted her. So because of the grooming and the abuse of trust, and my finding on harm this is a 3A case, but enhanced because of the particular effect it has had on [the victim] that falls short of severe psychological harm.”