"After meeting [him], I begun to self-harm by cutting myself. I do not know why I would do this; I cannot explain it. Maybe I wanted someone to notice something was not right and help, maybe I wanted to punish myself for putting myself into the situation. I know now I could have spoken out at the time, but it was not as simple as this. Whatever the reason, it is no coincidence that I started this when his offending begun. It has become a coping mechanism/a form of self-punishment and at low times in my life I continue to do this. I also suffer from flashbacks, dissociation and other trauma related behaviours, my mind switches to that frightened desperate, angry child who doesn't know how to take the next step forward. I have ended up in A&E on numerous occasions due to overdose, severe self-harm and mental health trauma related collapses."
"I have considered both the guideline and Mr Tully submissions, I observe that Dr Indoe does not draw any explicit conclusion that your IQ or your development make you less responsible for your actions. Nor does he draw any conclusion that your IQ or development led you to have an affinity with children or to feel more comfortable in their company than in the company of adults. Indeed, his report would tend to suggest the opposite. As paragraph 110 makes clear, and which is quite striking in the light of the issue that I am currently considering, you are found by him to have a severe lack of empathy with children. At the same time, as paragraphs 107 and 109 makes clear, you share the cognitive distortion of and you are emotionally congruent with adult sex offenders. Looking more widely at the evidence, there is nothing in your work record in a skilled occupation over many years to support the conclusion that you suffer a defect of ordinary functioning or that you are particularly childlike or naïve. There is also nothing in any of the references from those who know you well to support such a conclusion. Indeed, the references speak of you as an excellent father to two girls and a son, a role which would inevitably have required you to understand what the boundaries are. Whether you chose to observe with other people’s children is a different matter. In my judgment, looking at the evidence in the round, I do not accept that your culpability is reduced by virtue of a developmental disorder."