“A: I cried. “Q: I am sorry? “A: I cried. “Q: Why were you crying? “A: Because it’s not very nice seeing that, especially to a little person that is your son and you love. It is not very nice. “MISS K: I’ll get out of your face then, yeah. I don’t love you no more. Fuckin’ stay on your own. I never want you. Look at me. Look at me. Go on, look at me. Don’t bother coming finding me again. You don’t know how useless I felt. “MR N: You wasn’t useless. “MISS. K: I couldn’t even fuckin’ make my own baby stop crying (inaudible) My mum come in the hospital and took the baby off me. I had him for a second and she took him off me, and everyone (inaudible)just thinks I’m an evil cow. “MR N: You ain’t. “MISS K: (inaudible)”
“Q: So I ask my earlier question then, how do you know he did not do anything while you were out on the Saturday for the ten minutes? “A: Because I just know. “Q. Why do you just know that? A. Like I said, how he was with him. “Q. Was it more than just how he was with him: that, in fact, you know what did happen to him? “A.He wouldn’t have hurt him. “Q. He would not have hurt him? “A. No. “Q. So that means you did then? “A. Obviously, yes. That’s why when Dwaine told me that I swung him by his ankles and swung him onto the sofa, that’s why I believe him, because I know he wouldn’t touch Deagan. “THE JUDGE: So why did you get so angry yesterday afternoon in court? Do you remember when you ran off out after swearing? You were extremely angry yesterday afternoon, were you not? “A: Yes. I went out because, like I said, it was his son that he loves and I’ve caused that to his son who he loves and that just got me upset. “Q: You did not say that at all, did you? You said: “Look at me and look at the …. You listen to the something evidence that you are giving. Look at me. Look at me,” and he would not. Do you remember yesterday afternoon? It is not twenty-four hours ago. “A. Yes, I know I said: “look at me. Look at me,” but I didn’t say anything about evidence. “Q. What was it that made you so angry? “A. Like I just said, when Dwaine said, because he was finding it upsetting because it’s son that he loves. That’s why I got up and said: ‘Well I’ll go then. I’ll get out the way,’ something along them lines. That’s what I said when I got up. “MISS LANGDALE: I think I had asked him: ‘How did you feel when you saw her throwing him on the sofa?’ and he said: ‘It wasn’t very nice to see that happen to someone you love,’ and then you got up. “A. Yes, because I felt like I (inaudible)I’ve caused that to his son and I’ve wrecked it for him because he ain’t got a son. “Q. And you said: ‘You don’t know how useless I felt.’ Did you say that? Can you remember saying that? “A. Yes, I think so. “Q. And what did you mean by: ‘You don’t know how useless I felt.’? “A. Because no-one does understand.”
“There was an outburst from her. It is true that during that outburst she said things about her own abilities as a mother. It is also true that during that outburst she was exceedingly angry with the father and that she challenged him to look her in the eyes and repeat, and, in effect, to repeat when facing her, the accusations he was making against her. He declined to do so.”